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Helllloooo! I’m Laci…

I’m a wife to the most AMAZING and beloved man Tyler, (he really has changed my life in so many beautiful ways) and a mom to 3 wonderful, brilliant, and spunky little girls.

Over the last couple of years my life has changed dramatically. I went from conservative to liberal, a christian firm in my beliefs to an exvangelical who embraces doubt and curiosity, and I was also an antivaxxer turned provaxx during Covid.

All of these changes, though hard, propelled me into a season of healing that I needed more than I knew. It gave me the opportunity to see and identify the bucket loads of religious trauma and spiritual abuse I have experienced in my life time. It also allowed me to see and listen to the stories from others who have their own religious trauma.

This made me see how organized religion, specifically White Evangelicalism, has caused harm over the years (hell centuries). Once I saw people hurting I couldn’t stay silent. I started sharing my deconstruction journey on Tik Tok and soon I developed a passion to help others work through their religious trauma so they can live a happier life beyond and abuse, shame, and fear.

I stated a course in Trauma Recovery and will soon (Feb 2022) be certified. So if you, or anyone you know is looking to unpack and heal rom their religious Trauma I would be honored to walk this road along side you all.

I offer a free 30 minute consultation so we can get to know each other and decide if we are good fit. If we find that we aren’t a good match for each other I will help you find a coach who is.

If we are a good match we can have weekly, bi weekly, or even monthly coaching sessions. Each session is 1 hour, $75 an hour, and all information is strictly confidential.

If you would like to book a consultation you can do so by CLICKING HERE! 

A little about me…

My best friend is coffee… enough said.

I like the idea of working out, but am horrible at actually doing it.

I have ADHD and wasn’t diagnosed till 30 years old.

I love making friends but I also love being a little hermit. So, it’s a huge internal struggle.

I’m all about kindness, love, and positivity! A smile goes a long way.

I’m a deconstructing exvangelical who’s trying to find what spirituality means to me.

I love, support, and affirm the LGBTQ community.

I whole heartedly support the BLM movement.

I’m learning to recognize my own internalized racism and be a better ally.

I know my ancestors where colonizers and we live on stolen land.

I currently live on the stolen land from the Soshone & Bannock tribes in Idaho.

Some days I believe in God some days I don’t, but am embracing and enjoying my own personal spiritual walk.

I have a truck load of spiritual abuse and religious trauma I’m working through and I hope that as I tell my story it helps others heal and grow.

I’m an ExAntivaxxer and very open about my story in hopes that it helps others who are questioning their antivaxx stance.

I love growth, even though most of the time it’s uncomfortable and challenging, it’s necessary.

I’m passionate about learning and healing from our trauma and am studying to get certified in trauma recovery. My area of focus is religious trauma and I will be certified by Feb. 2022!

I was born and raised in Texas. No accent though, not sure how that happened.

I love to travel and have had the privilege to visit many states within the USA along with Panama, New Zealand, and Australia over seas!

I have lived in 4 different states in my 10 years of marriage, and currently we are back in Idaho and we have no idea where life will lead us from here.

I’m obsessed with taking pictures. Trust me, you do not want to know the number of pictures I have stored on my computers, external hard drives, and devices.

Cards Against Humanity is my favorite game. (Don’t judge me!)

Oreos are my Jam.

/Kinda/ Sweet Tea is my Thing!

I’m a big foodie and one day I’ll actually take cooking classes.

Some days I’m super organized and crushing it while other days I can’t even find my own ass.

But most of the time I’m just trying to figure out and do my best with this whole thing called motherhood.

My hope is that through this blog and my videos on social media it helps you feel less alone in the world of deconstruction and you are able to heal and move forward beyond your religious trauma and spiritual abuse.

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On our way to go grocery shopping today the kids a On our way to go grocery shopping today the kids asked for music. So my husband turned on a local Christian radio station. As I sat in the car listening to the lyrics I couldn’t help but think about the parts of the Bible they just didn’t tell us about in childhood. 🤔🫠
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#deconstruction #exvangelical #exvangelicals #exvangelicalbeliever #faithunraveled #sundayschoolstoriesyougotwrong #religioustraumasyndrome #religioustrauma #questioningfaith
I’ve missed this! ❤️ #thunderstorm #lightnin I’ve missed this! ❤️ #thunderstorm #lightning #stormsinthesouth #peace #tennessee
Thank you @immrsspacecadet & @running.4.funning fo Thank you @immrsspacecadet & @running.4.funning for encouraging me to start running again! #strugglerun #mentahealth #idothisforthedopamine
She’s back to brunette! I may have cried when I She’s back to brunette! I may have cried when I made the decision but 1 year of bleaching my roots and rocking the purple (when I’m not a professional) made my hair dry and damaged as 🦆! I knew that it wouldn’t be long until I was rockin wigs (no shame, wigs are great but EXPENSIVE) if I kept up the purple. This is not the brunette I wanted but it’s what we’re working with. (It’s lighter in person.)
It’s not lost on me that this was the shirt I wo It’s not lost on me that this was the shirt I wore today…
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#roevwade #womensrights
It’s been a hell of a past 20 days. The number 1 It’s been a hell of a past 20 days. The number 1 lesson I’ve learned?? I NEVER WANT TO BE A LANDLORD BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE GROSS!
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#peoplearegross #why #🤮 #landlordlife #notforme
IT’S HOT! #livingdownsouth #itshot #tennessee #t IT’S HOT! #livingdownsouth #itshot #tennessee #tennesseelife
It’s always amazing when you get to meet tik Tok It’s always amazing when you get to meet tik Tok friends in real life! Thanks for grabbing a coffee with me and my fam! @red_sage1
Why do I one like pictures of me when I’m being Why do I one like pictures of me when I’m being weird? 😂😂
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#embracingmyweirdness #bodypositivity #feelingpretty #beyou
It’s been a hell of a few weeks and it’s not c It’s been a hell of a few weeks and it’s not close to ending, but every day we are getting a little more settled.
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Being flexible is our motto at the moment. We have a mice problem in the basement of our new house which has cut us off to our 3rd bedroom, storage space, and my office until it can get treated and the insulation replaced.
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Please send all the good thoughts, vibes, and prayers our way that this gets taken care of before our stuff arrives from ID or we will have to store our belongings and continue sitting on lawn chairs and sleeping on air mattresses. (I know, I know, 1st word problems.)
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BUT DAMN!! Tennessee is BEAUTIFUL! Like drop dead gorgeous 
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#tennessee #easttennessee #crosscountrymove #gowiththeflow #beflexible #onedayatatime #lifeisajourney
I’m definitely back in the south. I’ve only be I’m definitely back in the south. I’ve only been here a few hours and I’ve already been called sweetheart and ma’am!😂
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#livinginthesouth #southerncharm #tennessee #backinthesouthyall
This is me trying to step away from social media f This is me trying to step away from social media for a couple weeks. I may not be successful but it’s worth a shot. But please remember if you need me, my email is open and I will continue to check it regularly.
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#selfcare #mentalhealthawareness #settingboundaries #puttingmyselffirst #socialmediabreak
Allow yourself the time to grieve and process. Allow yourself the time to grieve and process.
I grew up in small town Texas. Where everyone kno I grew up in small town Texas.

Where everyone knows everyone and somehow we are all inter-connected.

When I visited my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins we gathered in more small towns.

These are the kinds of small towns that most people would never know exist, and the townspeople are more than happy to keep their hometown out of the public eye so they can preserve that small town feel.

These towns have a way of making you feel safe, that’s why many people call them home.

After I got married my parents moved to Uvalde for my dad’s work and lived there for a couple years.

The Uvalde house was the last place my mom, dad, and all my siblings and I spent Christmas together.

Uvalde is another one of those small Texas towns, but unfortunately everyone now knows this town.

But what they don’t know is how a tragedy like this impacts a small town.

It hits different.

Small towns people are inter-connected in a deep way.

Uvalde citizens are mourning the loss of their child, their child’s best friend(s), their child’s teacher whom they may have known for years or even grew up with. Teens and adults are mourning the loss of the child they babysat.

Some may be mourning all of the above at the same time.

I’m mourning for them. For complete strangers.

I have a child in public school and I can’t imagine experience this kind of trauma.

From the moment I heard the news I broke. I don’t hide my emotions well, so my kids know I’m upset.

They asked why but I didn’t tell them. I just said that there was something on the news that made me sad.

I know she will probably hear about it at school tomorrow and come home with questions.

I won’t know what to say. Just like I didn’t know what to say or how to explain the fact that we didn’t have ‘active shooter drills’ growing up like she does.

The reality is, this is her normal, because this is the new normal.

I hate it.

We need change.
When is enough, enough? Thoughts and prayers don’t make change.
#weneedguncontrol #stopgunviolence
“I would give anything to be your size.” The “I would give anything to be your size.”

The few times I’ve opened up about being unhappy with my body I get that response, or even, “You don’t know what real body image issues are.”

So I shut up. Feeling as if my insecurities were invalid because I wasn’t big enough to have them, I stopped opening up and silently hated my body and berated it in my own head.

I finally opened up to a dear friend who is a survivor of anorexia, in which the battle almost claimed her life. She not only listened, but validated all my feelings. For the first time I felt seen. Thank you @lacijanea 

I’m still processing and to be honest I still hate my body. At this point I’m not trying to learn to love my body, I’m just trying to accept it, then maybe eventually I can love it.

So this is me being vulnerable, buying clothes that fit me regardless of the size, wearing a body suit and trying not to focus on my rolls that show, or the fact that my once thigh gap is no more. This is me trying to be comfortable in my own skin, one day at a time.

#bodypositivity #bodyimagehealing #skinnyshaming #learningtolovemyself #bodyacceptance #selflove #selfcare #movingforward #healingjourney
Tips for when you’re feeling triggered or experi Tips for when you’re feeling triggered or experiencing anxiety.
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#emotionaltriggers #truamarecoverycoach #healingtrauma #healingjourney #anxietyrelief #processingemotions
My neighbors boroughs me a new pride flag! #pride My neighbors boroughs me a new pride flag! #pride #lgbtqia #🏳️‍🌈 #prideflag #pride🌈
Fun fact, I never thought tattoos were sinful, but Fun fact, I never thought tattoos were sinful, but I sure as hell was given many pamphlets and articles to explain how they were. Needless to say I didn’t listen. 😂 I’m back at it again! This is tattoo number 2 for today! 😁 Is this self care? Who cares, I say yes!!
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#tattoos #addictedtotattoos #womenwithtattoos #momswithtattoos #tattoosarelife
When you start calling out the church for their to When you start calling out the church for their toxic behavior and the harm they have inflicted the names start flying.
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#deconstruction #deconstructingfaith #deconstructingchristianity #religionshouldnthurt #toxicchristianity
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